It has been a evolutionary roller coaster as I travel down the path to sobriety and healthy living. Which is also my excuse for not posting in over a month.
I sometimes still feel like Alice Through the Looking Glass...My dad is my all wise caterpillar in wonderland...Tony the Cheshire Cat...My mom the Queen of the Roses...Even though I am Alice, I believe with my clinical diagnoses, I am also the Mad-Hatter...LoL...
I have adjusted quite nicely to my clinical issues over the past two months. I haven't had any panic attacks in a month and have weened myself off of the vistaryl. I work out everyday, take my vitamins and supplements, and try to eat three meals a day, and three small snacks...Its hard work being healthy! =) But ever-so worth it. However, the family situation is still quite a rocky one...
My youngest child still loves Mommy and we enjoy our cuddle time everyday. My youngest daughter, my mini-me, loves me even though she's frustrated with the way things have gone these past 9 months...she believes in me and my recovery and is understanding. My oldest is and always will be daddys little girl...no matter what happens, she will always judge me and my faults and her daddy will always be the one person in her life that gets the "Get Out of Jail Free" card. I love her so much and admire her for her ambition and steadfastness...one day maybe she will see and understand that life isnt always black and white...Its colorful and brilliant and not always so easy to figure out sometimes...
I am getting back into the swing of things...and have re-dedicated myself to Me as well as to my blog. =)
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